Andy Warhol says the idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting.
I think that might be true if you’re a child waiting for Christmas, or it’s your wedding night. But I can’t say that with all the things I’m waiting for that “excited” is an emotion I’m feeling.
In any given moment, I’m:
- REALLY scared
Three potentially life changing situations have me hanging in the balance now and although they are all positive, I’m not excited about them. I even WANT them to occur, but I have no joy or enthusiasm for them.
What I do have is a running narrative of questions running through my head.
If this happens, then what do we do about THAT?
How are we going to handle this, that, and those?
Can we afford to do that?
All of these situations are completely and totally out of my control and I think that’s the key to my lack of enthusiasm. I’m the kind of person who has back-up plans for my back-up plans. I can’t do that here. What’s called for in all of these situations is stepping out in faith. For someone who likes to have multiple safety nets, this ain’t easy.
But no one every promised it would be easy.
Help me out here. What are you excited about these days? How do you focus on the positives and not the “what if’s”?